My life has been filled with crazy, twisted and bumpy times. I am sure you have had your moments too.  I was taught to smile through anything I went through, play the role I was expected to play and be whoever I needed to be in whatever moment I was in. It was a very unhealthy pattern. I continued as an adult not knowing any different. I was a prisoner of my own life.

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​I did not understand any of that until a few years ago when I found myself in a really dark place and was left with no choice but to finally unpack everything in my life, my childhood, my stories, my wounds, my conditioning, all of it. And wow… once I started, I realized my entire life had been a cycle of repeating unhealthy patterns, unresolved pain and traumas my entire life!  

 

What I had not learned through my life was that all of the stories I had kept hidden, the events, the hard parts, the secrets, the lies, the shame, the pain and my resilience to keep going were actually my biggest strengths all along...WHO KNEW!?!?!!?

 

I had no clue that the things in my life that almost broke me would one day become my biggest strength and the way I could actually help someone else find their own healing journey.  Together by sharing our stories and experiences instead of hiding them in shame....we can help each other grow. And guess whatelse.....the shame stops!  No one can shame you for a story you own!  That still blows my mind in ways I cannot explain....I may try one of these days.

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This space, The Polkadot Circle, came from the most broken time in my life and has evolved into an unexpected healing journey and the craziest adventure of my life.....a life filled full of Polkadots!

 

I’ve learned a lot along this messy, painful, beautiful path that I have discovered. I hope it will also help you in some way. I hope we can share and connect in amazing ways. 

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From self-acceptance and learning to love myself....and all the parts I was taught were bad and wrong to learning kindness toward myself (something I needed a LOT of work on), conquering low self-esteem and insecurities, finding my voice, and finally letting go of the shame that I’ve carried my whole life. 

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It has taken me a loooong, loooong time to be ready to open up and share.  I do not even share my stories with my friends so you can understand how it has taken me a bit to get here....self sabotage is a real thing too!

Sharing my truths is what I am called to do. Help others with my experiences and turn my pain into purpose. Afterall, what was the point of it all if it only helps me. 

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So here we are. This is me, showing up in a space I never thought I’d be brave enough to create. I’m grateful you’re here, and I hope The Polkadot Circle becomes the safe place for you that I always wished I had.

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I didn't understand all of this until just a few years ago.  Some of the topics I may cover along the way will be adoption...both sides of it, narcissistic abuse, family lies, abandonment and rejection wounds, creative suppression, domestic violence, illness, disabilities, single mom-hood, relationships, burn-out, childhood conditioning, shame, holistic medicine, medical gaslighting, finding yourself, ending negative self talk and so much more. This is not a victim blog. I truly feel like I have worked and grown and healed through so much of these struggles which I NEVER EVER thought was even a possibility! 

 

I hope my stories and experiences can help you work through yours as well.  We all have something hidden within. Those little things that nag at you or make you feel not normal. The over thinking of what others think... I could go on and on. Point being.  Not anymore...I am taking back control and I hope you decide to too!
 

By owning our own stories and sharing them we can connect with each others making sure no one feels alone on their path. I felt so alone on mine. Our connections ripple out kindness, compassion and empathy for others ....just like the Polkadots! ​

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By sharing we help others.

 

These are the stories that broke me, that stretched me, that grew me, that led me to the Polkadots, a new way of living, creating and loving.

 

This healing journey found me and I cannot imagine my life any other way!  I am so thankful to the people I have connected along the way. Those who were brave enough to share their stories because they have led me here!

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I feel free!  Free for the first time in my life. I have new gratitude, compassion and love for myself. My healing journey has led me to some pretty amazing things.  I have become a true believer that together we can change the world one Polkadot at a time!  That can happen in many ways...in the Polkadot Circle ....this Spot is all about looking within and learning to become the best you you can be!

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If my stories can help just one person....that helps change the world....even in the smallest of ways!  I hope you join me in my mission....no matter what spot you choose to explore!

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Thank you for poppin' by!  I wish you all the love, light and Polkadots your heart can hold!

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